I had been wearing the same purple hoodie every day for like a month. I don’t even really like its shade of grayish purple. Most of my clothes have been stored in my boyfriend’s mom’s garage since we came to Georgia in late March. I hadn’t felt motivated enough to go there and select a new fashion option.
I set a goal of completing 100 coaching hours by the end of March. It’s now May 6th and I’m not quite there.
I’d eaten more frozen pizza in the last month than I ever did in college. (And gurrrrl you know we got into some frozen pizzas our Sophomore year @Judy, @Kelsey, @Lauren)!
I was behind on my homework in a class I’m taking. Funny I had no problem getting through the seven Tiger King episodes and the bonus special. Yikes.
I’d done a shitty job at time management. I slacked off on my once daily nature walks.
I was feeling like I wasn’t doing a good job in my professional OR personal life.
It seemed like I was working even more than I was before the quarantine (many of my coaching clients have said the same thing - some are working more while juggling a full house of kids, partners, and pets). Sometimes I can’t tell if I’m actually working more or if I’m just more exhausted. Whichever it is, it wasn’t feeling good.
My judgy inner critic was having a heyday with all that I was getting wrong. I was judging my levels of doing AND being. My inner critic told me that I wasn’t doing enough, not doing the right things, not making enough time for being with my sporadic range of emotions. Beating myself up for not exercising more, not resting more, not getting more done, not magically becoming a world class chef, not [insert one million other things I “should” be doing]. It’s NOT helpful energy.
On top of where I felt like I was falling short, I also have a deep desire to contribute more to our world than just staying home and wearing a mask when I go to the grocery store.
When I could access a pocket of empathy, I remembered...
I’m living in a state I had never even visited before October.
Living with four other adults and four dogs was totally new for me.
My business is under 8 months old. Juggling consulting work and a coaching business is something that I’ve never attempted before.
I AM an excellent coach. I bring wholehearted presence, playfulness, and curiosity to every call.
I’m ALL IN on my close friendships. We have each other’s backs no matter what. The territory of our calls traverse a wide range of territory: tears, giggles, fierce honesty, basic grocery store inventory updates, and what we’re most afraid of right now.
And as uncomfortable and completely uncertain as this situation is, I know that good things are growing out of it.
I’m learning a lot about myself.
What I need, what I don’t need.
What works for me, what doesn’t.
Where there’s flow, where there’s stuckness.
The power to choose what perspective I want to be in.
Everything feels a lot better when I remember who I am.
So how do you let yourself off the hook when you don’t feel like you’re doing anything “right”?
If you or women you love are interested in joining a group where I share tips and tricks on boundary setting, join us here. I’m gearing up to do a free training on Boundaries in the Time of Coronavirus this Saturday, May 9th at 12pm (noon) ET in my Facebook group.
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